Thursday, 23 December 2010

Just so I get a post because Christmas time.

It's about two hours until I have to get my wisdom teeth removed, so I was feeling a post. Also Krysia said that my story was amazing, because apparently her barometer of decent-ness (decency?) is broken and she thinks it is okay. I mean, I know it's not terrible, but my fanfiction is way better; I think it's just because I have more practice with fooling around with other people's characters and it's easier to write when you don't have to think too much about whether this character is realistic or plausible. Well, thinking about it now I guess there's more possibilities that you may be making them OOC (out of character) and you can write your own character how you like, because they're yours. I dunno, I think I was out of my comfort zone and that scared to where I was nervous.

I watched Burlesque yesterday and I'd give it three stars. It had some good lines and the chemistry between Ali (Christina Aguilera) and Jack (Cam Gigandet - James from Twilight) was alright; Gigandet is definitely the better actor and his feelings for her were more believable - it seemed like Aguilera just kind of went out with him on a whim, but that's me - but it was meant to be like a feel-good film so I can't really judge it too much. Its morals were wholesome at least: work hard, don't give up, don't take your talents for granted, the world is full of people who you can and cannot trust so be careful because not everyone is as they seem. I guess people who own their own businesses could relate to the whole owing money situation that was put in place in this economic climate; but it was obvious that Aguilera would open her mouth and everyone would be in awe and that she would save the day but there would be a montage in which she turns into a condescending and self-involved douche, like all the film's predecessors. I mean, don't get me wrong: Aguilera's voice is phenomenal; it's a mystery how a white person can sing like that. It's not being racist, because she has this cute little voice and like this explosion of a voice and it's just weird; it's why I can only stare in disbelief when people insist that Lady Gaga is better -- all I can think of is, 'Are you serious? Christina Aguilera's voice DEFIES THE LAW OF HUMAN NATURE. SHE IS A MUTANT,'

Me and Ciara discussed this throughout the whole film, every time she sang just muttered amongst ourselves: 'It's not normal. It's just not normal'. I pointed out the Lady Gaga thing and she said that she preferred Lady Gaga's songs, but Aguilera was clearly, she gestured towards the screen as she belted out a song, more talented. It made me think of the Britney/Aguilera argument: they were both around at the same time, came from the same Mickey Mouse Club and both were blonde and pretty. Their songs were pretty much the same kind of irrelevantly pop, with lyrics about boys and breakups and occasionally about how women kick ass; but Aguilera, who could actually sing, brought out every so often the meaningful and soulful ballad (see: Beautiful); however, Aguilera's talent may have been the reason for why Britney was always more popular, or at least, one of the reasons, because think about it: how much easier is it to sing along to a Britney song? Whereas Aguilera's can also be so simple, mostly she does not waste an opportunity to show off her talent in a song. Plus she is responsible and stay out of the public eye; we've never seen Aguilera have a breakdown or anything of the sort and we can relate to Britney because she's human and makes mistakes.

That last paragraph is mostly derived from the Nostalgia Chick's analysis of the pop industry and how it consists mostly of blondes and always has. There are exceptions (see: Katy Perry) but even so. People seem to like blondes.

Serendipity time:

Back at the house, after nearly three hours (she must have spent more time talking to James than she realised), just around two o’clock, Uncle Stephen was still in the garden. When she went to talk to him, it looked like he hadn’t even been inside once to cool off; he looked at her and she knew what to do. She went back into the kitchen and handed him a glass of water; the sheer gratefulness in his eyes surpassed that of the parents of a small cancer patient towards a doctor who had at long last, after all these years, cut out the last tumour.

She rolled her eyes and told him to take a break. He shook his head and assured her that he was okay he had put on sun cream, or sun screen as he called it, so “no worries”. She left him and scavenged the fridge for something she could prepare for lunch. She settled for an omelette and took out three gas, one and a half each, since the note on the fridge door which indicated that Beth and Molly had gone to lunch together; it said “please could you quickly threw some leftovers for the three of you as Ethan is coming for lunch”. Erin stopped dead in her tracks and read it again: “Ethan is coming for lunch”.

Ever since last night when she almost kissed him willingly, the words ‘Ethan’ and ‘want’ and ‘need’ and ‘lust’ had all tangled together like used plasticine and she didn’t feel like separating the mess of colours. Not now anyway; she wanted to give it a few days so she could sort it all out after much thought she could decide that no, she didn’t fancy the pants off of her childhood rival/friend and she could focus on finding a guy worthy of a summer fling.

As if right on cue, Erin heard the toilet flush upstairs and Ethan soon appeared at the top of the staircase. He was wearing a white shirt with a v-neck and a small pocket on his left side, right above his heart. He had on beige long shorts that went to his knees, the kind typically seen on a surfer. He was the surfer stereotype personified and that attracted Erin to him to the point where it was mildly frightening, just because it brought all the times where the Ethan with the gap between in his teeth tripped her while she played on the street.

Ethan should not have looked shocked because she was currently living here, but it did anyway. Though, his face displayed not so much shock, but more horror, as in 'ah-shit-I'd-forgotten-about-what-happened-with-us-and-now-I-have-to-act-like-I-didn't-nearly-kiss-you' horror. Erin guessed her face probably mirrored the same expression.

"Hi," she said, or more accurately, croaked. It was super attractive, don't you worry dear reader.

"'Sup," he said sharply, looking down at the cooking utensils and eggs, cheese and milk set out across the centre counter. "What are we," he coughed, "What are we having?"

"Cheese omelette," she replied, her voice about an octave higher than usual. "That is, if you like cheese omelettes? Otherwise I can probably fix up something else? There's like pizza in the freezer; I think there's marguerite and fungi and --"

"Cheese omelette is fine," he said, raising his hands up to stop her rambles. And it pleased her to see that there was a small smirk playing at his lips. If she kept this up and didn't mention their near kiss then she could potentially form a sustainable friendship with this new-and-improved Ethan.

"Kay, that's good," she smiled nervously and reached for another egg.

"You want any help?" he offered, from under his long, lush, brown lashes. Did he mean to be doing this? Was he aware of this power he could have this over women? Was he even single? If so, why was he single when he could simply look at a girl from a certain angle and their hearts would twist itself into a not that left you breathless? These were all very good questions.

"I, er, well, ah," she started. "You could, um, ah, spread the vegetable oil on the frying pan; that'd help so I can focus on mixing up all the, er, stuff."

"Sure."

She just looked at him from the side and watched him work. He must have noticed because, was it just her imagination, but he seemed like he wore a smug grin when he met her gaze. So it looked like he was vaguely conscious of his looks.

She blushed but in an effort to appear a more in control she waited before looking away.

“Anything else?” he asked, but she did not dare look him in the eyes for she feared of what it might do to her.

“Turn up the heat,” she answered and went to fetch the oregano.

In her mind, when she turned around, Ethan would be leaning against the stove, looking at her as intensely as he had last night on the beach. She would stare back at him challengingly, clutching the edge of the counter for dear life and he would swoop over, take her face in his hands and kiss her fervently. It wouldn’t even particularly lead anywhere; it didn’t have to, all that would matter in that moment was that unstoppable, unforgivably and criminally sweet kiss that made her forget her middle name.

But he didn’t. Of course he didn’t. She didn’t even know why she thought it could have been plausible for one second; instead, when she turned around, Ethan was standing a few feet away from her, not even looking like he was interested in kissing Erin in the slightest while he stared down at his feet and hummed.

“So, what have you done so far today? More surfing?” she asked politely, pouring the contents of the bowl into the pan. The soft sizzle relaxed her slightly, as if it was whispering to her to calm down and remember to breathe. It’s just Ethan, he’s just a person; you still have scars on your knees because of him and he shouldn’t get away with it that easily just because he has soft green eyes.

“Nah, I went to swim and do some jogging,” he had pulled out some potato chips from the cupboard and chewed on one absentmindedly. He offered the bag to Erin, and she carefully took a few and placed them next to the counter so she could cook and eat. “There are just too many kids and swimmers around to surf comfortably. That’s why I prefer to do it at night, but I usually have work the next day, so.”

“That makes sense,” she told him, eating another chip. She pushed some of the omelette forwards and tilted the pan so that some of the parts that were still liquid could go onto the hot part of the pan and fry properly. She’d had lots of practice over the years for making omelettes as she grew up with two writer parents; when a deadline is due, it’s not like they wouldn’t look after them, but more like it was more advisable to just leave them alone to wrap up whatever they were writing, which in her mother’s case would be whatever chapter of whatever book, while her father, being a journalist, was much more pressed for time than she, and usually had a mini-breakdown before turning in a column. When sometimes they overlapped, her and Georgia just left them to it and made beans on toast, which slowly, after purchasing cookbooks, evolved to more intricate and sophisticated meals. Omelettes were her specialty, mostly because it was one of the first ‘complicated’ ones she had managed to successfully fabricate.

She bit her lip as she folded it in half; here came the part she always, no matter how many times she cooked an omelette, got nervous about. She held the pan above the flame and shook the omelette free, preparing both it and herself; she knew from her peripheral vision that Ethan was looking at her curiously, but she carried on regardless. Taking a sharp intake of breath, she quickly did the necessary snapping motion with her wrist and kept her eyes on the omelette and stealthily caught it.

She let out a triumphant high-pitched squeal without meaning to and jumped up and down, clapping her hands together. She stopped when she realised Ethan was right there, next to here, wearing an amused, bemused expression; she cleared her throat and laughed.

“Sorry, I always get too excited when I manage to do it,” she explained sheepishly still holding the pan nervously.

“No it’s fine, don’t mind me. It’s not like I could do it,” he said and took another potato chip and ate it.

“It’s easy!” she insisted and took his hands and placed them around the handle of the pan. Her hands were over his and she was quite aware of how if someone walked in, namely Uncle Stephen, it could be misinterpreted as her flirting with him, but that was not the case (in fact, he, as a psychologist could possibly to look into it more than anyone else could). No really. Well, not really. She was only throwing it back at him; he was going to be all suggestive and then act like it was nothing, then so could she; it was all in good fun. Also, she wanted to spread the gift of being able to flip any substance on a pan: you could use it for tortillas and pancakes as well as omelettes! It was an investment skill, it was. "I'll show you."

She leaned back into him and felt his body stiffen (not in that way, you perverted reader) and felt the same kind of pride that Ethan must have.

She looked up to him and showed him what to do, "All you do," she said, "is shake it like this," she paused to show him the motion, "and get ready to catch it."

She stepped away partly to let him do it himself, and partly to gauge his reaction; she was oddly pleased to see that he seemed relatively flustered. That right, she thought, two can play at that game.

"You ready?" she asked, her hands on her hips as she did her best to sound nonchalant. In her opinion, she had done so successfully, but she was biased.

She watched as he, still frowning, just did as he was told and looked questionably at the pan down he was holding, as if he was only just noticing it was even there. He looked over at her, as if to say, 'I-don't-really-think-this-is-a-good-idea-because-could-potentially-ruin-the-lunch-you-have-just-prepared'. She just nodded in encouragement and waited.

He swiftly copied her movements exactly and actually managed to catch it. He laughed in relief; the kind of high pitched, kind of embarrassing, laugh that was too contagious for Erin to not laugh as well. Plus it was kind of hilarious in itself, and she folded herself as she laughed, holding onto the counter for dear life as her stomach ached with the pain.

"Well done," she said shakily, still laughing, mostly due to relief herself; it might be strange to some how the atmosphere could change so quickly between them; she preferred this lighter, friendlier mood, personally and hoped to maintain it whenever she saw him, and let's face it, it was going to be a lot; she was glad that within those moments it wouldn't be so hard to distract herself from how attracted she found herself to him. Everyone is attracted a little to their guy friends, right? She, after all, looking at her history, was an example of that: she'd only crushed on guys who were her friends before; then again, that might simply be called having morals, but she liked to believe otherwise. "You proud of yourself?"

"Very actually," he admitted. "I can see why you squealed. It is quite the feeling of accomplishment."

"I know, right," she agreed, using the spatula to cut the omelette into three mildly equal pieces. She left it there in the pan so it could stay warm while she heated up some rice and took out some of the salad that Auntie Molly had put out from a previous dinner or lunch, or knowing Auntie Molly, a possible spontaneous, random craving for salad. Auntie Molly may have never had kids, but that meant that instead of having the cravings only throughout those nine months, she would have them completely out of the blue have a passionate desire for random food.

Happy holidays and thanks for reading this past year!
Mel.

Thursday, 2 December 2010

Is that dust?

Oh sheesh y'all. I'm sorry blog. I missed you too; c'mon, c'mon, don't turn away from me. Come here. No, blog... come here... c'mon... I have a post for you! Aha! There you go. Of course mummy still loves you, don't be silly. But I just needed some time to write a book. You know, that Nanowrimo thing I told you about? Yes.

No but seriously, I started like, three days behind and I still finished on time. I am a God. Not really, no. I mean, the book ending was a bit thrown together into a huge, tangled mess because I was in such a hurry, but the middle bit isn't too bad. I mean I know ultimately I don't have enough life experience to write a decent Young Adult Novel; even Maureen Johnson says that you need to live through it to write it. I haven't even fallen in love yet, so it's a wonder I can actually write about that, tbh.

Oops, sorry, just abandoned you again to read the new chapter of Hana to Akuma. I keep making, 'Gah' noises and pulling a silly face; I sound vaguely like a duck. Sorry, a habit had developed and seeped through into my writing of adding unnecessary details since Wrimo (like how it's already abbreviated but I abbreviate it more? That's life on the streets that is).

It's currently snowing fucking bucketloads here and I have NO SCHOOL. No, really; it never really snows here, or, up to last year it didn't, but climate change is... changing that (I want to be a writer). The snow is at least like, a palm deep if that makes sense. And I have to go out, eurgh. It looks pretty, but honestly? It's cold, will get me wet and with the amount of layers I'll have to put on, it's barely worth it. I know I have the mentality of a sour, middle aged person.

Right now, with Wrimo gone, I plan on going ever so more on Tumblr and writing AS MANY FANFICS AS POSSIBLE. I missed fanfiction a lot; I read some Scabior/Hermione because their relationship is just really kinky and addictive and intoxicating. I will also probably play more Smash Brothers Brawl, because I love that game. Who do I play with might you ask? Why, Pit of course! And Link so far, but as much as I have a crush on Link, I'm finding myself not defeating enemies too successfully with him. And Pit is cute too. Ooh I still have a Frankenstein essay too; shite. And some Mock Exams coming up. And a German exam on Friday, should the town be functioning properly by tomorrow. I have therapy tomorrow as well, but I doubt neither I or my therapist shall be able to commute to The Dolphin House Clinic in time, because of all the snow. It's like, six or seven centimetres out there, it's reddic.

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That was written a couple of days ago. It is now the seventh of December and I'm blogging after dinner even though I'm not supposed to be on the PC.

I just finished some J/A fanfiction and I should really be revising for Science and Maths mock exams, but I can't be arsed. I definitely will before bed, I mean, but still. Lazy, I am. Yet I write like, a three thousand word story instead. Go figure; priorities, hey.

Went to the doctor's today regarding the removal of my wisdom teeth next week; I didn't realise how serious it was until then. I mean, amongst other surgeries, it's like a guppie, but still, I have to like, not eat and stuff. I don't know. I was fascinated by how casually the surgeon sauntered into the room like she hadn't just been potentially saving someone's life; I mean, she was definitely changing someone's life in some way, and that's something you're allowed to brag about. I would have. Also, she was kind of small and her hands were perfectly and delicately shaped; yet she had this air of authority, of strength about her. Like she knew what she was doing with her life.

I also just finished this gorgeous book called The Book Thief. Go read it. It's brilliant and perfectly written. It's in my top five favourite books; the style is interesting and the characters are flawed but wonderful. I can't gush about it enough.

I'll leave you with an excerpt of my Serendipity:

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"I'm bored," Joey stated abruptly and she stood up. She took both Taylor's and Matt's hand to drag them towards the sea. The refused so she looked around the group for approval of her idea; Abigail, being the adorable button that she was accepted just because she didn't want conflict, and James also got up to join them. He looked back at Erin encouragingly and she without hesitating ran down towards the water.

Joey pulled Abigail straight into a wave which got them soaked, while James looked reluctantly at Erin who grinned flirtatiously and used both of her hands to pull him into the sea with her. Erin was surprised that the water was the warm as it licked its way up her dress, and before she knew it, she was pretty much drenched up to the tips of hair in her ponytail. It just felt so nice.

James however didn't really join in and Erin felt bad with him just sitting on the sand all by himself, so she walked out of the water and went to join him.

"You alright?" she asked him, tucking a stray hair behind her ear. She realised the flaw in her plan of wearing a white an butter yellow striped dress and going to play in the water; hooray for transparency.

"I'm good," he nodded towards the empty space next to her and she slumped down next to him. "How is Oz treating you?"

"Ah, it seems impossible but it's exactly the same as I remember it," she said warmly. "It's like I never left."

"And Abbie said you're staying for a year? How come?"

"If I'm being honest," she sighed; it was kind of exhausting, explaining what her purpose here was, since there wasn't one sole reason. "It just got a bit, hectic at home, with my parents nearly divorcing and all," she stopped to sneak a look at him; he was looking at her pretty intensely and it made her lose her train of thought for a short moment. "And that kind of led to me breaking up with my lovely boyfriend and I was just a bit lost; I love this place, and I though it'd be a good place to *find* myself, so to speak. Plus the wedding anniversary party and shtuff. Lots of reasons, as you can tell."

"Yeah my parents are divorced too," he sympathised. "And it does kind of mess things up thoroughly. Luckily mine were pretty civil about it but I don't think my mum's really forgiven my dad for the whole affair."

"That's kind of the situation too," Erin nodded. "But if I'm being honest I doubt my dad really cheated. My parents have been disgustingly in love since they were like, fifteen. It took them like eight years to properly get together and my dad's not the kind of person who'd throw that all away. I reckon my mum just needed a little bit of Australia too."

James grinned, "That's understandable."

"Guys!" Joey screamed. "What's the time?"

"Chico Time!" James bellowed back. And Joey asked him to answer "seriously", but Erin just raised an eyebrow at him sceptically; she hadn't known that 'Chico Time' had managed to break through into Australia. He proudly held his chin high and said, "Yeah, I know about Chico Time."

Erin giggled and shook her head; she took James's hand and took a look at his watch.

"Eleven o'clock!" she shouted, which made Joey scream 'Shoot!' and fall over, bringing Abigail down with her, the two of them screeching in harmony. Joey hauled herself up and staggered out of the water.

"I've gotta go, but it was nice to see you again," she told Erin and gave her a quick hug. "We should hang out again soon."

"Sure, I'd like that," she said warmly as they pulled away.

"I should probably go too," Erin lamented. As she stood up, James extended a hand which she took and pulled to help him up. She laughed nervously as this made they bodies be too close for two people who just met.

When she got to the campfire Ethan was dusting off the sand of his shorts. She felt kind of guilty for leaving him since he was the one that invited her, but his smile took it anyway.

"Shall we go?" Erin beamed at Ethan. He looked vaguely taken aback by her sudden change in how warmly she was addressing him, but shook his head.

“I’ve got the day off tomorrow so I’m going to catch some waves, because I can,” he nodded towards the abandoned surfboard that somehow she had not noticed. Maybe she was too busy trying to hit on James without being too obvious (and failed, dear reader, might I add).

"Oh," she replied, "I'll keep you company, then. I don't actually know how to get home."

"I can walk you home now if you like," he offered, and his eyes betrayed the sincerity of his words. She could quite clearly tell that it was something he had looked to forward to; he had, after all, worked all day in that shop, putting up with Auntie Molly talking about her and assisting to the customers who were mostly middle-aged to elderly woman who bought random flowers but were really there just to chat with Molly, with the occasional man who seemed to be buying a bouquet for his significant other. God knows how long he must have worked there for since she got there around nine and he had just arrived.

"No, no, I really don't mind," she told him. "I'll wait. There's not much for me to do anyway."

He shrugged in a 'suit yourself' fashion before removing his shirt and heading towards the water. Erin made a note of how amiable his chest was after she had managed to untangle the mess that had become her thoughts. She wanted to become friends with this New Ethan, who was well-mannered and considerate, but his good looks were going to be awfully distracting; she hoped she could just find a suitable summer fling so she could get this craving for romance out of her system. She felt like this desperate, horny fourteen year old all over again; trouble was, honry, desperate fourteen year old Erin had Jacob to make out with and talk about how much life sucked with. Now? She had no-one, except for potentially James, whom hadn't really displayed a profound interest in her. Fantastic: she was worse off than her younger, more lamentable self. Life. Was. Fair.

Ethan, she noticed as she carefully made her way down closer to the sea, was a pretty decent surfer, not that she was one to judge. The tide was out but the waves were big enough for Erin to be impressed by his supposed skills. He swiftly turned and slid in the waves as if they were barely there and he rode out of them like it required no effort at all. Then, still standing on his board, he threw himself off it, into the water; he would then climb back on the board and sit on it until another wave came along than could be surfed. It was fairly routine, but each time he would add his own little unnecessary quick twist or would stay too long in the wave's tunnel; each time Erin would sit up a little straighter to see if he was alive. And he always was.


Love, Mel.

Monday, 1 November 2010

/things to do:

Eye is itchy. Here goes:

- Nanowrimo
- Science revision
- History revision
- French revision
- English essays
- Tidy room
- Wash and cook potatoes
- Finish reading the books I am reading atm
- Tumblr
- Youtube
- Blogspot
- Nanowrimo.

Liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiife.

Going to get to those potatoes then guys,

Love ya, Mel.

Tuesday, 26 October 2010

LaurenMarieAshleyIsAwesome.

Right so you all know Lauren right? The really awesome girl who write such good posts? Yeah well I love her so much it hurts. She is the light of my life. I love her.

Monday, 25 October 2010

And I'll never admit, that I think you look great, it's a pokémon battle, it's not a date.

Had a good day today. Had therapy on Friday; the lady had really nice eyes and was super duper nice an shtuff. Having another session the 26th of November, so w00t w00t? Nah, I don't mind. It's helping so far, but I don't think I'll need it for much longer, so that's good I suppose.

Lauren and that are coming over tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it because my house is boring as. Ellie is most definitely looking forward to it as she has not been to my house before, but still, my house is pretty shite, and she'll be disappointed. Also, Sophie can't come and that's annoying.

Taylor Swift's new album Speak Now is out and I have it on me iPod. I love it so; she's just so adorable and despite being 21, she can still write songs that I manage to relate to. Or, y'know, enjoy, since I've been single my entire life. Mostly because I can really only properly, seriously, completely relate to Enchanted, because the closest I've ever really gotten to love is that spark of chemistry of when you first meet somebody, and you want it to go somewhere (with me it never does but that's beside the point).

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go. I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home. I'll spend forever wondering if you knew, it was enchanting to meet you.

Erm, booked tickets for Harry Potter today and it was super awkward because we had to book ten tickets and it was kind a bit of a hassle for the guy who didn't have much experience booking things in advance and stuff. But we got them! Gah, 16 days! Need to start re-reading.

Story time! This one is a snippet of the parents from my Nanowrimo story. Mother is slightly based on me but she's more shy and has always been kind of content with loneliness. Here goes:

CONOR surpressed his surprise as Beth twined their fingers together suddenly but slowly. He knew this independent display of affection, and public no less, was a big step, and he didn't want to make a fuss in case she changed her mind. Instead, he gives her an appreciative squeeze whic, out of the corner of his eye, makes her smile sheepishly. This is a big step, he thinks, this is good.

They stand there in the rain for a while after getting off the bus, just smiling at each other, but behind the forced calm smile, Conor is faced once again with the almost uncontrollable urge to kiss her. Inexplicably, she reaches out her hand and strokes his face briefly before putting it back down again. Conor just stand there frozen, wondering what has come over her and catches her wrist, looking down at her questionably. She gives him a kittenish grin before sauntering into the building; she stops at the end, by the lift and Conor stays there, in the rain, watching her graceful moves as she presses the button and pulls her hair out from underneath her stripy maroon and navy blue scarf.

Conor can't help but stand there, rooted to the spot, mesmerised. He is taken back to the golden Autumn afternoon where he experienced that epiphany, revealing to his that Bethany Longhurst was the prettiest girl he had ever seen. Each one of her blinks and each breath she takes makes him want to thank God, or whoever it is up there that was responsible, for making her be born on that 14th of May*; it makes him feel... lucky. Just, happy inside, really. He loves her, but he just wishes he could show her.

Beth looks at him and smiles invitingly as she nods towards the elevator, as if it was the most natural thing in the world. Conor tries to breathe normally.

If he didn't know any better, he'd think she was flirting with him.

Love, Mel.

*Yeah, you're welcome.

Thursday, 21 October 2010

Grouchy.

So yes, not the happiest bunny. Ciara says that my blog is not as good as Lauren's because I post things that I work hard on to bring out of my head and want to share with the world and whatever. It's not fanfiction, okay? It's not. I make it myself. Not that I don't make fanfiction myself, but you know what I mean.

Also, I went to shower and left Tumblr open and I have 26 updates to view, which is red-donkey-lips. I loe Tumblr though. It is so internet-y and awesome.

In my life, since Ciara seems to care, I have... gained a Tumblr, obvs.

Started yoga with George's mother. It's free and I enjoy it because I hate intense workouts and so it's perfect for me. Also, it elongates my spine thus improving my posture and making me taller. Take that, world.

Started Year 11. Which, I can't deny, has been both good and bad. I seem to be under a lot of more stress, but apart from that, I like it. Mostly because I like school. Ooh, and also I have a slight crush on Nick in my History class who I never noticed was quite so pleasant. He says my name and I get all suffocated inside, but in a good way, if that makes sense. He also talks to me when he doesn't have to, because he's kind of popular, but he does anyway. Plus I'm a sucker for smart boys, and he's clearly not stupid. Oh, and he's tall. Pity he smokes; it is the only reason why I know that if he asked me out -- which he will never, but still -- I wouldn't accept. I know I'd just be thinking about how many minutes of his life it was taking off and such. The grammar in this paragraph as been awful; this is what boys do to me I suppose.

Gotten more into films? I don't know. I think I'm just trying to add things in so Ciara actually reads this.

Become thoroughly addicted to fruit tea. Or mostly just strawberry and mango tea with about three sugars. I have a problem with sugar; it is not possible to have too much.

Ooh, and welcome back Elisabeth. Thank you for the lovely comment :)

MORE STORY TO DO WITH JOANNA BECAUSE SHE'S COOL AND I LIKE HER WITH NICK (GUESS WHO HE WAS NAMED AFTARRRRR?).

JOANNA slides forward, entranced by how intensely Nick is looking at her. No-one has ever looked at her in a such a way.

"I just..." he paused, never breaking his fierce stare from her lips, eyes, nose and cheeks. He is looking at all of her at once, it feels like, "I just don't want to waste time anymore."

'What's the rush?' Joanna wants to ask, but she loses control when Nick slowly lifts his hand to meet her cheek. Every cell in her body shudders but the way he is looking at her and cradling her face so gently, like she's the most precious thing in the world, makes her wonder if he is seeing her the way she sees herself.

"Well then stop wasting it," Joanna says as clearly as she can, but it still comes out a whisper; she tilts her head forwards and kisses him.

Nick is not shocked when she pulls away, or at least, doesn't seem so. Instead, he wears the same slightly amused, slightly frustrated expression from all those years ago when Joanna would beat him at, or to, something; and the exact infantile thrill jiggles her spine. Bravely, Joanna presses her forehead against Nick's and waits.

"Well go on then," she hisses impatiently, as she grew more and more embarrassed. Never has she had to take a boy step-by-step on how to kiss her. Each one had more or less assumed how to do it.

Nick hums lightly before pushing against her forehead. He smirks as Joanna unwilling takes a sharp intake of breath.

"I think I'll tease you for a bit first, shall I?" Nick says calmly. Joanna had never realised what seduction truly was, or how powerful it could be, until this very moment. "So sit very still."

Nick laughs breathlessly as Joanna mutters curse words under her breath; she obliges anyway and closes her eyes, waiting.

She can feel Nick's confidence collapse though she cannot see him. He has not really kissed a girl before, and she knows this. To be perfectly honest, it feels like this is her first kiss too, with how her palms are sweating and throbbing in time with her tittering heart. She wants him to on with it but at the same time she wants to slow down because feeling this way is novelty.

Joanna is about to open her eyes when she feels Nick's mouth fall on hers and the surge of emotions she feels makes her freeze. At first. Though it takes her time to react, when she pulls away she finds herself tangled in his legs, her hands threaded in his hair. His too are woven in hers, the other gently caresses the waistband of her jeans.

The stare at each other and breathe heavily, neither knowing what to do. It's kind of scary, how thick the air seems. Joanna has never felt this gratitude for someone else being alive, this dependency on an existence, and it's both exciting and frightening.

"That was..." she begins, clearing her throat but Nick just leans down and kisses her again, more forcefully this time. Joanna shuts her eyes and feels her mind cloud. Something hazily tells her that if she pulls Nick closer then it will feel even better, as if that's possible.

So Joanna snakes her arms around Nick's neck and tugs until there isn't an inch between their bodies. Eventually, Nick comes up for air and Joanna wonders how on earth they managed to lie down without her realising. He was about to kiss her again when Joanna swiftly places her hand between them.

"W-wait!" she says desperately and Nick sits up. His eyes are glazed over and his lups have the same colour lipstick Joanna is wearing smudged across them. Her lips feel bruised and tingly; suddenly that half a glass of wine seems too much her to handle. "Let's slow down, shall we?"

"What if I don't want to?" The in look his eyes was playfully threatening. Joanna slaps his arm.

The both start laughing because they know Nick borrowed the line from some form of teenage romance novel, movie or whatever; it's not NickandJoanna at all. Deep down, neither one expects much from the relationship because both are wise enough to that only feelings last forever. They would eventually break up due to obstacles that would arise, but Joanna would always be the one to introduce this kind of love into Nick's life, and vice versa; and that mutual gratefulness between they would never fade.

Joanna runs her right hand through his wavy locks and smiles as Nick closes his eyes briefly at her touch.

"I understand," he says softly and kisses her palm. "Can we still cuddle?"

Joanna gigglesa nd dives into his open arms to which he responds enthusiastically by clasping her tightly and falling back on the bed. She leans up and kisses his nose before burying her face in his torso.

No, she thinks, this will never die.

*

Thursday, 7 October 2010

Blurring.

Joanna twirls in the empty wind and watches the school bus drive past. She does not care today, because today is the anniversary. She has ever since promised to do something with her life, and that included not going to school; she knows Alice will text her, demanding where she was, but she will call her on first break to let her know.

Joanna breaks into a sprint and passes a boy with hazel-brown hair and a red scarf. On another day, she might have stopped and spoken to him, and maybe he may even turn out to be the man she married; but today she is letting go of teenage worries and indulging in the childlike elation of running until you can't breathe, think, love, like, hate or care. The world was a flowing mess in her periphery and the sky was so blue, the clouds so white.

Joanna throws herself over the railing; the crumbling, rusty, red railing. She only stops to briefly check her hands had not been cut; they were pink, much like her cheeks, but they aren't wounded, so she carried on running. The grass swished and there was a plump man in a tractor-like thing driving over it, mowing it, but Joanna barely stops to notice him in his navy blue hat.

Joanna starts to cry and the tears burn their way down her face, into the air. She stops in front of the cliffs and fell to her knees. Her white blonde her slides in her face like a curtain, bouncing. The sea is sparkling and bright; Joanna feels like she should go swimming in it, but she's still sane enough to understand how harsh and cold it will be.

Joanna wipes away her tears and beams into to breezes as it tickles her neck. She holds out her arms, imagining what it would be like to fly, to soar, to travel among the birds. Joanna has missed missing this.

Joanna sits crossed legs in the soft grass and closes her eyes. She is happy.

This is what it is like, she can't help decide. Maybe she should skip school more often, she decides with a bitter laugh.

Joanna whips out her phone and presses 'one'. She calls it and leaves a message.

"I think I've finally found what you wanted," she says to no-one, "I just wish you were here to see it, sweetheart."

Joanna is faintly aware of the cawing of the seagulls when she sadly smiles into her mobile, presses him closely to her.

"I miss you everyday," she whispers, because it's an exciting treasure that only her and the glowing sun will ever know, "The world is so beautiful, now, Nick. Everything is so brilliant."

"See you later."

Joanna hangs up and sprawls out on her grass bed; the individual blades gently brush her skin comfortingly. Joanna presses one grateful palm against it, feeling the warm soil.

Joanna knew how to do something Nick never would; that was sad, but old habits die hard, and she was pleased as usual to beat him at something.

Living.

Friday, 1 October 2010

WHYYY WHY WHYY WHYYY

Jesus fucking Christ I really don't understand the obsession of wanting me to blog so badly. You're my friends -- you're in my life, and you know what goes on inside my twisted fucking mind. That's a lie; it's too messed up up there and you guys are way too innocent (particularly Krysia).

Let's see, erm, I have been writing fanfiction and it's nice and lovely, but going nowhere. I like to write it anyway because GCSE pressure makes me feel like I'm losing the person I was. Also, I'm trying to get more into anime, again; yes, you may have guessed, to get in touch with my younger, skinnier, more upbeat and happier self. Can you tell I'm in a pissy mood? Oh dear.

Erm, yeah I need to go watch Grey's now because I was not allowed last night.

Thursday, 16 September 2010

IIII CAN'T COME OUT TODAY, I'M SICK.

The song is 'Sick' by Lex Croucher and it should be longer than the one minute something it is. What am I even. I'm ill and it sucks because it doesn't feel that much worse than a cold, except it does? I dunno. Symptoms of a cold multiplied about seventy-eight fold. Need. More. Tea.

But anyway, HEY BLOG. Goodness it *has* been a long time hasn't it? I do apologise a little bit for that, but not a lot because my life's been pretty... meh. As it should be. Because I do nothing to make it more exciting.

Erm, I read fifty books! That's cool, huh? Actually on my fifty-first book. It is called 'Looking for Alaska' by someone you know. Book #50 was Mockingjay which I have to admit did no really like; I felt kind of like a fake because I loved The Hunger Games series but... not as much as a lot of people seem to. I liked the change and mix of violence, romance, drama and adolescence; it was good because it wasn't entirely happy but mostly sad. Like DH. There was a war, and casualties happen, even if they shouldn't have had to. I honestly missed a lot of stuff because I was reading fast because I wanted it to end so I could know what happened. Also, I wanted to read fifty books. So I did. Mockingjay deserves a B+, but that's all.

Ahhhhh and I saw Scott Pilgrim vs. The World and it's now my favourite film. I indulged entirely in its nerdiness and fondness of videogames, comic books, etc etc. It was all so cute and wonderful and clever and witty. I want to see it again. Soon. And go see if you haven't.

I'm going to die and go make some more fruit tea now.

BYE BYE BYE BYE BYE.

Wednesday, 1 September 2010

In which Melanie delves in the wonderfulness of CIARA.

Because I was talking about my Year Ten friends specifically in my last post, Ciara got all jealous and thought that I didn't love her. Which is just silly, really. Of course I love Ciara; I think I feel undeserving of her the most because she's so awesome in a nerdy way. I've always admired Ciara in my own way and am incredibly happy that we are friends, because I like how her minds works. I like how soft her hair is, if that's not weird. She's part Irish, or pretty much just Irish depending on your point of view (for example, like Ciara, both my parents are from a different country, but, at least in my case, it's been debated too many times whether I am Brazilian because of my parents's nationality or English because I was born here; I personally, don't care), and Irish people are pretty chill. It's kind of hard to describe Ciara, but in short, she's just so sweet and nice and amazing; I'm lucky just to know her. Her supreme knowledge of everything, particularly Harry Potter and Science, is both intimidating and inspiring. At least I pwn her at being an Anime nerd; I probably pwn most people at that if I say so myself, but yeah. Ciara will probably tease me about that on Formspring but Anime is cool in its own way and it's super fun to make fun of too (if you know how).

Wow all one paragraph. That's so ghetto.

I love you Ciara.

Yours,
Mel.

Tuesday, 31 August 2010

In which Melanie apologises to Lauren...

...because this post is not going to be that special. Really. At least, not so far, because I'm feeling pretty lazy and have that weight on my conscience that has the shape of a Word document with some shit about Elizabeth Blackwell. Yeah... I really should get back to that soon-ish.

So, last BEDA day. WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME? Feelings? You want me to talk about my feelings? Okay, I guess I could do that with difficulty but regardless. That didn't make sense; and neither does most things, okay? Bye. Not really. Okay. Here we gooooo.

I think my friends are super pretty and awesome and I like them a lot. I cherish them more than I cherish any other thing that I have in my life. My friends are literally my extended family. They are just so nice and amazing. If you don't believe me, look at these: 1, 2, 3, 4 and 5. I just, love them. I thought they should know that because they should know. Guys, I don't deserve you. Honestly, I don't. I suck compared to y'all. You're all too pretty, smart, witty, nerdy and both lame and cool in their own ways (like they should because cool/lame people are awesome;. just ask the volgbrothers).

On a much more disgusting note, the movie 'Splice'. Wikipedia it if you doubt that humanity is disgusting; it will fully fill that doubt. People are messed up. It sucks. And really, it's people like my friends who restore the faith that we can do good things.

I kind of wanted to write something nice about how much I like Lauren, Kate, Sophie, Ellie, Olivia, and co so much, but whatever. That's the vibe you should get from it anyway.

BYE BEDA I LOVED YOU IN APRIL BUT IN AUGUST YOU WERE JUST A PAIN. SEE YOU NEXT YEAR.

Yours,
Mel.

Monday, 30 August 2010

I HATE BEDA

I need to do homework and I can't blog right now, sorry. I like wheezywaiter. Bye.

Sunday, 29 August 2010

Sorry.

So Lauren's a douche and is going to go to bed early because she is so unbelievably tired, both physically and mentally. Anyway, sorry. Ilovemelaniekress. Goodnight.

Saturday, 28 August 2010

Woah, what a coincidence Mel is busy too?!!?

Not really. Lauren is busy reading and Mel is busy being lovely and enjoying the heat of Portugal whilst it rains in England (yay XD)

So this is going to be very short, in fact it's pretty much ending here. Goodbye. Sorry I suck at blogging for myself and other people. I should really not be trusted.

x

Friday, 27 August 2010

In which Melanie laments and celebrates Esther Earl.

Yeah, if you read my blog then you're a nerdfighter, in which case, you probably watch vlogbrothers and that means you know who Esther Earl is. If not, I have no problem at all in filling in you on as much as I know about this amazing girl.

Esther Earl was a sixteen year old girl who almost single-handedly (from what I can tell), helped the Harry Potter Alliance win $25,000 in order to help lesser fortunate people in less economically developed countries. Esther was bright and happy and smart and quirky. Esther was "astonishingly apathetic, really thoughtful (and) very funny", according to John Green. Esther was inspirational enough to all of Nerdfighteria to have a scrapbook filled with notes given to her by her friends, bursting with gushing words from Nerdfighters who loved her immensely. Esther Earl, at the ripe, tender age of sixteen, died from cancer early in the morning on 25th of August.

I... have to admit I never fully watched many of her videos. There weren't my style of entertainment and plus I thought she was too perky and a little annoying; I respected her deeply, but never really made a fuss of watching her. I saw her in a vlogbrothers video and I warmed to her the moment John Green attempted a puff fight, and she jokily replied, "I don't know, yours has a lot more shape than mine,". I guess the reason this is is because if I had cancer, I doubt I would be able to accept having my hair be a 'puff'; I doubt I'd be able to leave my room, let alone happily meet John Green. I'd be too depressed to eat, and yet watching some of her videos now, she was not that different to me; she claimed to be lazy, she spoke with her arms a lot, she got excited and sang Wrock songs. It's truly admirable that she just got on with her life instead of moping like I would have done.

I turned on Twitter the minute I found out, and saw all these people who I follow who were complaining about having to go to work, or their videos being too big to upload, and I felt angry. I never knew Esther personally but I wanted these people, a lot of them who outlived her, to be happy to be alive and kicking while Esther had already entered her endless slumber. I think it was when I saw her last Tweet, which she had posted at around midnight of the 24th, that I started to cry, or when I found out her age; I imagined me dying next year, or Ciara dying now, and it saddened me, and once I was crying I remembered the death of my Great Uncle and soon the tears were a mess of missing Esther and Tio Jorge. I prayed for the first time in ages that night, curled in my tent, still weeping as quietly as I could.

I wish I met her. I wish I'd talked to her. I wish I told her she was one of my heroes just because she never gave up.

But I don't think Esther would want me to live on in my 'I wish's, and instead I'm going to hold my head up high and live my life to the fullest for her. I'm going to be thankful that I'm someone who knew of her and could have been touched by her; I can imagine one day I'll look back on Esther and instead of wanting to fight back the tears in a Wi-Fi zone in a camping site, I will smile and tell those around me of this wonderful, beautiful young woman who I'd vaguely had contact with, who was ripped a long and prosperous life, and whose love for living had changed me.

For more information from better sources click here and here.

Always yours,
Mel.

Thursday, 26 August 2010

Braclets and Apples.

The title is basically just what's in front of me. The apples are there because I'm at my dining room table and I had to take off my bracelets to write out my History homework, cos' I'm weird like that and write best with no distractions. That means no bracelets, hair tied up and fringe clipped back.

There you go, I'm giving you little bits of trivia about my really exciting life. Lucky things.

Now because I'm doing my History homework I'm going to go so that I don't procrastinate like I've been doing for the past 4 weeks and actually get it done!

Bye.

Yes! No misspellings again!

Wednesday, 25 August 2010

Gawd.

So because I'm like totally awesome in every way I bet my exam results are gonna be awesome and I'm going to get an A* in History, unlike Lauren who is an idiot and couldn't just get one more mark, I mean what a douche.

Blah.

Melanie I need you :(

PS Blogger accepts blah as a word. That's so cool.

Tuesday, 24 August 2010

Hm.

Lauren Marie Ashley is a gay.

It's a world-wide known fact.

She fails epically at life everyday.

Sorry love.

p.s. I love it when the spell check tells me that there were no misspellings found XD

Monday, 23 August 2010

*sigh* again.

So, like the idiot I am, I left melanie's blog till the last minute.

Dayum, got stop doing that.

I'm watching lee Evans again, frecking love him so much. His wife is a lucky woman. His daughter is very lucky too. I wish my dad was that funny.

I've decided that imma go and get my results tomorrow morning, rather than wait a day. I'm scared.

On that note, imma go.

I miss Melanie :( want her back now.

Bye, uninterested blog readers.

Sunday, 22 August 2010

Imma real sorry.

I didn't post a blog for Melanie yesterday. I'm really sorry, I forgot only because I was at Sophie's and just forgot to write in the morning.

I'm being a dork and listening to "When I look at you" by Miley Cyrus. This song makes me want to cry for some reason. I'm just too much of an emotional person. I really gotta do something about that. Toughen myself up. Psh, yeah right.

So I've spent the past hour going through nerdfighter secrets. It's pretty awesome, but some things are a little depressing and just mean. But tbh It's not like I have anything better to do.

OHMYGOSH JUST BOUGHT LOOKING FOR ALASKA! YAY!

Bye. x

Friday, 20 August 2010

Wawawawa speaking from Póvoa (BEDA #20)

(I think. Not actually sure where I am right now, tbh.)

I'm sticking with the default font for once just to see how this all turns out. It seems so... colouring inside the lines to me, but Ciara's complained about my font size so I reckon I should do something about it, seeing as she is one of the few readers I have.

Onto ranting about the camping. We are now in a different one which is more crowded and therefore louder. It kind of sucks because I wonder how well I'm going to be able to fall asleep. Also, the people here all look really moody and stare at me for no apparent reason. It's making me want to place a plague on both their households, if you know what I mean.

There is one cute guy here. I ran into him not looking my best, seeing as I saw him as I left the shower place, my hair up in a convenient, yet not really attractive. Our eyes connected for a split second, and I have to say it took a few moments for me to register what I had just seen. He was tan, but his hair had been kissed by the sun, so the ends of his curly locks were a dirty blonde. He was wearing a skin tight wet suit. I approved of it. He looked my age, or maybe a bit older. I think that's why he struct a chord; he's older and has curly hair. I don;t know, they've always been small turn ons for me. No idea why. Sue me.

I even opted to changing in the toilets near the showers, as opposed to in my room in my tent just to see if if maybe I ran into him coming out of the shower. I also stood in the toilets for a bit in case he took a long time showering, but then I contemplated perhaps he had really short showers? Also, I considered how he looked like a surfer; should I wear my swimming/surferesque shorts to show him how much we have in common$? Or should I wear my skirt in an attempt to look like a girl and prove to him that I don't always walk around with trampy towels wrapped around my head to look like a turban? I chose the skirt, but didn't run into him.

42 books out of 50 so far. I can actually do this.

It's cold now! Weird. I'm in a long sleeve top, leggings and a cardie because I didn't actually bring jeans because I assumed, you know, it'd be hot all the time. How I was wrong; how wrong I was. Well, I brought some skinnies, but they seem really, harsh, if you know what I mean.

Had dinner. Fuck they eat a lot here; I think I am gaining weight and so I am going to eat some more greens as from now, especially on this holiday. I miss greens, and fruit. Haven't had that many so far. Not that much water either. That's bad. I should get some water when I get to the tent. And read some more of my book, Yes Man. It's funny and I like it. I am actually mimicking Danny Wallace when I try to write at the moment without really realising it. I don't really mind, tbh.

Longer blog than I have written recently. THAT'S NEW. I miss England.

Yours,
Mel.

Thursday, 19 August 2010

Mel is hier again, oh ja (BEDA #19)

The wife of the man who is named Tande and who is my dad's friend, has just informed me that they do not have wireless in their home, which means that I am currently stealing the internet of some other Portuguese neighbour and wasting their bandwidth. It's their own fault for not putting a code on it, yo.

Er, this house is super duper chic and nice. It's rather intimidating how together it is, if you know what I mean. It's all neat and tidy. The woman, called Uli (?) is German and has a super long name that no one can pronounce, thus it been shortened to Uli. Anyway, Uli is a art therapist, which would explain how the house is decorated so harmoniously. It's pretty and I like their floor; it's a wood that is a reddish, chestnut colour that blushes under the sun's glow. That was a nice sentence I just spewed out right there.

Also, it's still hot and we're living at the camping site. Our tent is big and green. People are loud and there are drunken teenagers who like to SING REALLY LOUDLY AT NIGHT IN A PORTUGUESE ACCENT. It's funny when they do it during the day, but at night it just makes me want to kill a baby. I'm fine in the mornings to get up even if I'm tired, but if I'm tired at night and am desperately trying to get to bed, I would probably even tell Charlie McDonnell or Alex Day to go away because I wanted to sleep. I would probably ask them to come back in the morning, but still.

What else... I'm stuck in Pokemon Leaf Green because I need to get to One Island but can't because I can't find the fucking ferry because it's not on Cinnabar Island any more. ARGHHH. I think I'll Google it when I finish this. There is a pool in the camp place but I don't like sharing pools, especially with teenage boys whose sobriety is questionable. Also my stomach is horrifying.

I'm boredy bored now. Lauren I love your posts because you are a sexual beast.

Yours,
Mel.

Wednesday, 18 August 2010

111th POST!

Does anyone else find this awesome? No? I'm the only nerd here? Dayum.

So I'm going to write a very brief post (I only have four freakin' minutes) as if I'm Melanie. Here goes;

Ahem. So I'm missing everyone in Enlgland like super loads. Especially like Lauren cos' she's like so totally awesome! I wish I was in rainy England because I just want to be with Lauren like so much it like hurts, like real bad.

Melanie time = over.

So I wrote that and the voice in my head was a kind of American-bubblegum-eating-thirteen-year-old. Did anyone else get that vibe? TWO MINUTES!

So I love you Melanie, if you're actually reading the horribly atrocious posts that I'm writing, then I'm sorry to put you through so much pain and I'm sorry I'm subjecting your blog to short posts when it is obviously used to incredibly long ones. I don't think your blog likes me, I don't spew genius when I write. Dayum. I like writing that :)

Bye Love.

Tuesday, 17 August 2010

Lauren Ashley sucks.

She does, but I know deep down that she is really reeeally sorry for sucking at blogging.
She is.
Wow this episode of CSI is creeeepy.
Yours, Mel/Lauren.

Sweet holy Jesus it's Mel again! (BEDA #17)

Mel: Calvin, what do you want to write in this post?
Calvin: Hehe... er...
Mel: What's your favourite Pokemon? Top three?
Calvin: Bulbasaur, Eevee and Sandshrew. And then put a smiley face. (:))


Okayyyy... today was hot and I sweated. I have some nice deodorant though, so it's all good. The family were really sweet and luckily I am getting used to the accent. In fact, I've nailed a decent impression. I would share it with you, but I can't, really. It's pretty cute, if I say so myself, because I sound so badly like a Brazilian imitating a Portuguese, But, my cousins, my many cousins, are super chill and have dogs, so my time there was not too awkward. Also, there was a baby, and I like babies in the legal way and managed to distract myself as I watched Francisco being fascinated by the fridge magnets. Also, third cousin Joao Pedro is really witty for his age and don't take no shit from no-one, which was amusing.

Ate some more fattening yet delicious pastries and some really tasty pineapple mousse. Had three servings of said mousse and am now feeling slightly ill with how much I've eaten. I want to get to the beach already to burn it off in the sea just by walking around. I cannot wait for the sea, or a swimming pool.

I might be able to sort of save Lauren writing me too many blog posts because I found out there is wi-fi at the camping site, and I can just sit and boil in a tent while I let you know how much fucking weight I've gained. Eurrghhhhh I feel so bloated and fat.

I want Taylor Swift's new album to come out because I like her songs very much. I wish I'd downloaded Kesha's album to listen to because she's kind of awesome in a weird way. I dunno, I like her. Sorry y'all.

Yours,
Mel.

Monday, 16 August 2010

Mel hier (BEDA #16)

Gah Portugal is excessively hot and it took forever to get here. Seriously, I don't know if you know, but we had to cut through France and then Spain to get to this cute little town in Portugal called Fafe. Unforch, we are not staying here and instead are moving onto more cities in Portugal like Porto.

Because it took so long, we stayed in this cute little town called Bayonne which was cute. But we couldn't find a hotel for ages and then managed to just outside of the main Bayonne bit. It was kind of cramped and hot and I got really thirsty and my Gran snored; not my best night of sleep.

Erm, we had dinner at Quick, a French fast food restaurant and I got to speak some of the little French I know, like, "Where is a hotel here?" and "Is it expensive?" and "Can I have some water please?". Oh, useful phrases. I also had a dream that I met Ms. Mazzoleni in France; not that funny considering she is my French teacher.

Sigh, what elseeeeee. Well, then we breakfasted in France, lunched in Spain and dinnered in Portugal. How odd and sophisticated don't you agree?

Portugal is nice. The town is sweet and my parents keep gushing about how much it's changed in two decades and blah blah blah. We went to the registry office and talked to two women I don't know but love my parents. Pastries are good and the wine is too (according to my mum and Gran). We have to meet up with family tomorrow so I'm taking this opportunity to blog be--

That's where I was cut off. I had to sign off; I hadn't been captured by an infamous villain whose name begins with Candle and ends in Jack. Don't know him? Let me introduce to my overlordGoogle. He will take it from there.

I cried a lot today. Some of it from happiness because I have the best friends ever who are so nice to the point where I feel like I don't deserve them; it's true, I have a complex. We went through this in therapy: I have a paranoia where I always feel like people aren't going to like me. I believe such trauma occurred when I moved to Brazil and then back to England. It's my parents's fault I'm awkward! W00t someone to blame for my problems.

I wish I'd gone to SOA. That's a little bit of why I cried today tbh. I'm still sort of upset. I think it's one of those infamous things that I'll always feel a little bitter and/or resented about not being able to go. It was their first gig and shiz and, I dunno, I reckon they'll probably do more gigs, but it won't ever be quite the same. Sigh it's annoying that way. The best word for what I feel I guess would beee frustration. It would explain my crying.

So, about Portugal! Ermmmmmm I like the food and I wish it was more pleasant that hot because there are wildfires and it makes me feel bad about the people losing their home and whtaevs. Also, the shops are open til eleven and it's just weird; it's like finding a wild Pidgey at level 36. It's just against nature.

Everything here is so cheap and I'm filming a lot. I'm sweaty so I'm going to go battttttheeeeeee.

Always yours,
Mel.

Sunday, 15 August 2010

Ah Damn...

...So you may or may not have realised that it's actually been me, Lauren, writing Melanie's blogs for the past two days. I know that if I hadn't have told you, you wouldn't have figured it out, but I cannot go on living a lie.

I don't really know what to write for Melanie's blog because a) I'm not Melanie, b) The stuff on here will probably be the exact same stuff on my blog and c) I have to this for like two weeks.

I'm doing half of BEDA for her. Surely that's not fair considering I have my own BEDA also. Psh. I'm such a good friend. Doing this for her.

For the reasons above, chances are that the posts I put on here are not going to be amazingly long and intelligent as I usually write my posts at night when I'm overtired and barely coherent.

I have just drawn all over my leg in black CD pen. That's going to be fun if I should wear shorts tomorrow. But tbh I'm probably not going to wear shorts tomorrow. The weather is ridiculous for the middle of August. I like it, but apparently people want sunshine, don't see why, the sun is an evil thing, but people in England crave the summer because our winters are relatively harsh. I however absolutely adore the winter. It's so pretty and then people put up Christmas lights and there's just that general giddy feeling pulsing in the air and it just...gah! I don't even have words to describe it. Winter is beautiful basically. Melanie may not agree as she doesn't like the rain, but whatevs.

I'm going to go know because I am so freakin' tired. Goodnight all.

Yours, Lauren.

(I feel I should still end Melanie's blog in the same fashion that she does.)

Saturday, 14 August 2010

Too Late.

I will do a blog post tomorrow. Technically this is 34 minutes late, but we'll pretend that it's not late at all.

Sorry for the rubbish-ness of this post.

Yours, Mel. (Lauren)

Friday, 13 August 2010

LAUREN IS FREAKIN' SEXY

Yeah, it's true. I've been trying to deny my attraction to Lauren for far too long now. So, imma come out and say it. I am totally and irrevocably in love with Lauren Marie Ashley. She's just so freakin' awesome, words can't even describe it. She's never moody in the mornings and just always looks so fabulous.

But anyway on with the normal blog and I'm going to be clever and witty and spew intelligent things. Because I'm super-mega-awesome-foxy-hot.

So I'm going to do another "things I like" list, so here goes;

-Lauren
-Lauren Ashley
-Lauren Marie Ashley
-loli12@hotmail.co.uk
-_laurenashley_

That's pretty much all my life is made up of. I live for the things on that list. I mean obviously I need food to live but it's not as vital as Lauren is.

I'm going to go now because I need to leave for Portugal soon, damm, not gonna see Lauren for 17 days. How am I going to live?

I love Kate as well. Thought you ought to know!

Yours, Mel. xoxo

Paranoid (BEDA #13)

That Lauren'll forget to blog for me. She better. I love you guys. Have fun tomorrow. Tell Alex I love him and stuffs. GIVE HIM MY NUMBER I DON'T MIND COUGH COUGH.

Leaving for Portugal soon. Erugh. I hate life.

Yours,
Mel.

Thursday, 12 August 2010

Packing and tidying (BEDA #12)

Hey, y'all? How's it hangin'? Well? Yeah I hoped so. I'm actually supposed to be packing atm, but have stolen away a few moments to contribute to BEDA, because I'm a good internet citizen. I have read 40 books so far this year and cannot believe I might actually accomplish my goal of 50 books; it seems so surreal.

I feel slightly better about SOA because although I won't be able to go to the gig, I can at least let John Green know how much he means to me because Kate is giving him my letter that I finished last night. I hope he reads it despite it being three and a half pages of A4. I mean every word that I said in it. It was something along the lines of 'Thank you, why I can't come, what you've done for me,'. And my book's getting signed, so that's good too. And he'll come back to England I'm sure. Still, nervous about meeting family; if it weren't for that, I'd enjoy this holiday like I normally would.

I bought some stuff yesterday for the holiday and bought a skirt which was an investment and was only £2. £2! I love me bargains, as you know, so this was fun to buy.

I'm going to go listen to s'more Kesha now. Bye babies.

Always yours,
Mel.

Tuesday, 10 August 2010

APOLOGISIN (BEDA #11)

Didn't blog yesterday. I'm sorry, BEDA. I failed ye. But I was tired and my dad was like, go to bed now and usually I would've argued and asked him for a couple of minutes to at least type a sentence for BEDA. But I was sorta tired and forgot about BEDA, tbh.

Why was I tired? I walked around George Street and the street adjacent to it. I bought my uniform and then my Gran loves charity so we walked around them. All of them. And O bought a couple of t-shirts and some books, quite happy that I'd purchased some useful things and helped some people in need while I was at it. Today, I wish I could say that I would go shopping and was going to go hit some more charity shops, but I'm going to Primark to get shome cheap strappy tees that are specifically for the holiday. I'm kind of anxious with the word: holiday. I'm nervous. Nervous about meeting my family, because I don't think they'll really like me. Le sigh.

Might go to see TS3 with the gang and Ciara. Oh sheet, Ciara's not here. I feel bad for having to postpone Kate seeing the most amazing little cute film evar. Meh I'm so tired and this post is so pointlesslesslessless eugh what am i even doing what am i ...

I want to go back to bed because my dad woke me up early because he was saying something to my brother.

Screw you BEDA, I'm playing tetris now.

Always yours,
Mel.

Forgot to do this? (#BEDA 10)

Sorry, y'all.

Monday, 9 August 2010

100TH POST?! (#9 BEDA)

Hi my name is Julia Nunes and I bought this cup but I don't really need it.



Wow I feel like I should do something special for this because it's my hundredth blog post, but nothing comes to mind at the moment.

Kate is back from Ireland and that's really cool. To celebrate the fact that the four of us are all in the same place for at least some time in the summer, we're having a super chill sleepover. At Sophie's, naturally. I love those guys; I really do. They're really lame in an awesome way. I mean, we're all part of the 'I'm going out on Saturday night. Lol jk Doctor Who's on'. Those are the kind of people we are, and I wouldn't change it for the world. Really.

Soo... yesterday I started my History, and that's what matters really in life. I can finish it now I've started, amirite? Yeah, That's what I thought. Yeah, it's coming along.

My Gran just told a really not funny joke but it was so not funny that it was funny. It was in Portuguese, I can't explain it and it kind of gets lost in translation, so I'm just going to keep it to my family. Sorry y'all. I do love my Grandma. She tells me things like, "Your assertive and you won't let no man walk over you. That's good," more often than she says I look pretty. She calls me things like, "a strong young woman" and "independent young lady". It's probably why I say those two phrases so much. Also, she's the only person I joke around with things like, I'll be on the phone, and it'll clearly be a girl, but I'll say it's my boyfriend and we'll have this little joke about. I don't know quite to explain it, but I think she's awesome and we get along beautifully. My Gran's super fly.

Wrote some Samurai Champloo fanfic but I won't post it here because none of you read or watch it. I've like, two and a half episodes left of it. It's so exciting! I love the sense of accomplishment I get when I complete an anime; I feel like my old self again. Back when I was like, eleven, it was all I did and it gets me all nostalgic.

I watched a film called The Uninvited with my dad. It had Emily Browning in it and it was scary and weird but not too scary and weird, so that was good.

I think I'm going to buy the Ouran AMV so I can watch it when we're on holiday. I love Ouran. I think I'm going to force the Sophster and Lozzie to watch it because it's one of those things that you have to do, okay.

Let's do a things I like list:

- Julia Nunes's laugh.
- Finding something cute to wear at car boot sales and things.
- The way John Green speaks.
- Buying books.
- Kayley Hyde's room.
- Quirky and catchy songs like Your Love is My Drug.
- Sophie's laugh.
- Ellie Manley.
- Lauren's negativity and sarcasm.
- Kate's amazing ability to make nice cakes.
- Kate's icing.
- Ciara Greer's insane knowledge of everything.
- Molly, the dowg.
- Hayley G Hoover's eyes.
- My Gran's humour.
- When my brother decides to be cute and is funny.
- Receiving blog comments.
- Finishing a story.
- Compliments on my fanfiction.
- Girls Next Door webcomic on dA.
- Editing pictures on Photoshop.
- The way Olivia Brett's mind works.
- When I manage to get along with George like old times.
- How me and my cousin function.
- Watching people play zombie/kinda scary games.
- Jake and Amir moments where they seem slightly gay with each other.
- The people on Gullieship.
- When Stephen Fry refers to Alan Davies like he is a small child.
- Alan Davies's everything. I wish I could have dinner with him.
- The adverts at the cinema.
- When I can smell my hair.
- The cuteness of Irish and Scottish people.
- Brazilian humour (read: Felipe Neto).
- Sims 3.
- Going to London and feeling super British.
- Sunshine and then rain to balance it out.
- Bleep Bloop.
- Songs that make me smile because they're so cute.
- My herbal tea.
- Salt 'n' vinegar crisps.
- Chocolate croissants.
- Swimming.
- Reading.
- Writing.
- Surges of inspiration.
- Jake Hurwitz's laugh and smile.
- Amir Blumenfeld's glasses,
- Sarah Schneider's hair.
- The Nostalgia Chick.
- Elisabeth Scibs :)
- Finding attractive guys.
- AVPM! <3
- Darren Criss.
- Joe Walker.
- Starkid.
- Everything about Harry Potter.


And I suck at these lists. Next time, I'll make a hate list, because I'm cynical and dislike far too many things. This is why I need therapy, yo.

Always yours,
Mel.